colors of summer

June 22, 2012

There is something lately that draws me in. Like a pull on the heart but only stronger. The lure of capturing a colorful world for the first time feels right. It has just been a tingle inside but I know it is supposed to grow into more. I am open even though I still find refuge in the black and white.

It seems that there have been so many pulls lately. It is as if every direction in my life needs me. Only it is happening all at once and at such a swift pace it leaves me breathless and often confused. Knowing which direction feels the best is at best a blurry mess.

Then there was this.

The temperature outside was climbing and very much mirrored what was going on inside. My littlest one had a high fever, one that left us sleepless. He wouldn’t allow us to help him. He refused his medicine and everything was a fight. It became a very scary one as his body reacted to the heat. He persisted and his will, for the first time was admirable, if it wasn’t for the danger that lurked. On the outside looking in, we knew what was best for him. My husband, myself, the doctors and nurses, we all tried. It was a shock when the doctor handed him back over and said he couldn’t help. The question remained how can I help my little one when he keeps fighting the one thing that will help him most.

I believe this extends far beyond the two year old will.

When I opened the door the heat hit me like a wall. I pushed through as the heat pushed back. My body was heavy with tired as I had only a few hours sleep. But there was a deadline. I was to capture the colors of summer, so, I closed my eyes and imagined what that would be. I saw hazy summery yellow and green. With camera in hand I set out to find it. There was this moment of peace. Just me, the buzzing of the bees and my camera. It felt so good to have my camera focused on something different and new. For this moment, change felt refreshing even amidst the heat. Hearing the familiar shutter click brought refuge. But I couldn’t find the yellow haze. Until I looked over in the distance. There were wild yellow flowers growing through the fence. My heart pattered.

I plopped down onto the rocky road. A few clicks in and I stopped. These flowers were wild and free. They were growing through the fence, seeking out the sunshine on top of a rocky road. They were leaving the green, lush forest in search of more. They were open to change and they were beautiful.

I think sometimes it is hard to leave what feels so comforting. Even to the extremes of refusing the one thing that can help you most. But we must learn to stay open, to fearlessly follow. For what if the yellow flowers had stayed within the fence, the darkness of the forest would have kept them from blooming.

This post is part of a special blog circle of military spouse photographers. Each month we have a theme and we each interpret what it means to us and share. The circle has grown this month and I know you will love what you find. Here is the next blog post from Heather. Enjoy.


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  1. mereditz

    June 22nd, 2012 at 7:34 am

    I would love to see more of how the world looks to you in color!

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  3. Becky

    June 22nd, 2012 at 9:25 am

    You have stepped out of black and white and are just dipping your toes in the water of color here. Jump in head first! 🙂

  4. Jackie

    June 22nd, 2012 at 9:35 am

    You are an artist – your words paint your emotions, your photos so aptly capture the emotions expressed. Black and White may always be your true talent and vision, but exploring beyond your comforts is good for the soul. Enjoy and be confident – your work is outstanding.

  5. Melanie

    June 22nd, 2012 at 9:43 am

    I love this!!! It’s so… you, but with the perfect color.

  6. Katie Smith

    June 22nd, 2012 at 10:23 am

    Beautiful! I love the way you write.

  7. Serena Nicole

    June 22nd, 2012 at 1:23 pm

    Awe thanks Katie, that means so much.

  8. Serena Nicole

    June 22nd, 2012 at 1:23 pm

    Melanie, the fact that you feel it is so me and it is in color, means the world. That was a hard task!! I love that you are part of our circle this time!

  9. Serena Nicole

    June 22nd, 2012 at 1:24 pm

    Jackie, your words made me choke up a little. This means so much coming from you. Thank you.

  10. Serena Nicole

    June 22nd, 2012 at 1:25 pm

    Thanks Becky! But the water is SOOOO cold! I will cherish your words on this journey…color will come soon!

  11. Serena Nicole

    June 22nd, 2012 at 1:25 pm

    Meredith, that means so much coming from you. You are truly an inspiration and I feel you have helped me fall in love with color. So excited to be on this journey with you friend.

  12. Staci

    June 26th, 2012 at 3:52 am

    Hope you littlest is feeling better. and the color is beautiful…

  13. Serena Nicole

    June 26th, 2012 at 6:20 am

    Thanks Staci!

  14. Kricia

    July 6th, 2012 at 10:03 pm

    Your writing (as always!) brought chills to my skin. You’re a fabulous photographer and an even more amazing storyteller. I love your take on this theme and I’m honored to be on this journey with you!

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