I felt the weight of Matt being away every single day. Each day I always wonder how the boys are truly feeling. Do they feel that he is gone like I do?
I try to do it all. I play Mom and I play Dad and I give everything I have to make the house feel like home. To make the absense less for them.
There is this moment once Matt is home that I literally feel my entire being exhale. My world stops. The perfect house I have kept turns cluttered and chaotic. The exercise routine is out the window…the world stops for just a second while I soak up all I have been missing.
Seeing Jack with his Daddy and I have to believe he does the same. So comfy and curled right on Daddy’s chest.
